I am to stop any communication with you, before i hurt my family and i. Before my whole family and i go thru hell. I do not want to go thru it all over again. I have been struggling to get better. So , when this thing happened and i got sick again, my family was really angry. They knew how i put a lot of effort trying to help you with your grief. So i do not blame them for being angry with the whole situation..
I was advised also to just keep the friends i have. because i am still emotionally unstable. It is not like having a fever, you take you meds and you will be okie. It takes years to overcome any depression.
Depression is not like stress.
To learn more about depression:
i can barely remember how i was when i first had depression, because i was not myself at all. i was told that I would suddenly be in the kitchen with a knife or on the balcony getting ready to jump down. i would walk out of the house barefooted. My family had to supervise me all the time. In case i do something out of the extraordinary. I nearly stabbed myself. There are still marks on my wrists.
The reason i am telling you this is not to gain pity, but just to inform my readers how bad a depression can be. Do not take depression lightly. People who are depressed would hurt themselves.