12/10/2020

The day we got married was a day before his birthday and two days before mine. Yup we are both Libras.

I knew that he is different from all the guys/men I have ever met. This is my third marriage. Third time the charm right? So at last I get to experience what marriage life is. It is definitely different than my first two. I am not gonna elaborate on those two people who did not stand up for me. 

Alhamdulillah , I met my husband. A gentleman , who is 11 years younger than me. It is like more than a decade of difference. We talk and discuss on things that are important for a married couples to stay together and be in love forever. 

Both of us learn things about life together. This is something that keep our relationship stronger. 

There are more things that I want to write. 

Will update later ya! 

I dunno..

I have this strong feeling that I going to be paralysed waist down. The pain is unbearable . I cry each night. So I guess the psychiatric meds did nothing to my kidney but it messed up with my muscles & nerves. Every night is like a battle for me. I can’t sleep because of the pain. I would end up taking double doasage . Yeah, OD again and again. I can hardly read and books. But with all the deadlines, I must finish the books. I pity my cats. I know that they miss me a lot. Boy would scream in front of the closed door, wanting to come in (or wet food)

I know Ejad is lost. He doesn’t know what to do. All he can do is be there for me when I am in pain. Which is more enough actually.

End of this month , we will be going to Selayang Hospital to meet an Orthopaedic. 

I dunno..

I have this strong feeling that I going to be paralysed waist down. The pain is unbearable . I cry each night. So I guess the psychiatric meds did nothing to my kidney but it messed up with my muscles & nerves. Every night is like a battle for me. I can’t sleep because of the pain. I would end up taking double doasage . Yeah, OD again and again. I can hardly read and books. But with all the deadlines, I must finish the books. I pity my cats. I know that they miss me a lot. Boy would scream in front of the closed door, wanting to come in (or wet food)

I know Ejad is lost. He doesn’t know what to do. All he can do is be there for me when I am in pain. Which is more enough actually.

End of this month , we will be going to Selayang Hospital to meet an Orthopaedic.